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Was I misdiagnosed? Tolerance/resistance to meds?

Written by on November 30th, 2009

justlivinglife asked: Since I was about 17 (23 now), I had started taking anti-depressants and occasionally anti-anxiety medications. I have tried Lexapro, Wellbutrin and Prozac. I have used them individually and together. I had taken them in low doses, and high. Nothing seemed to help, even with alterations to the ...

Death is following me. Nervous breakdown/suicidal? Absolutely terrified?

Written by on November 30th, 2009

with broken wings... asked: History- I've been in film & television since I was 11 years old. My happiest place is sitting with a script in my hands. But all of this has been stripped of me... and I'm just--- lost. Almost 2 yrs. ago I had a high-risk pregnancy ...

History- I’ve been in film & television since I was 11 years old. My happiest place is sitting with a script in my hands. But all of this has been stripped of me… and I’m just— lost. Almost 2 yrs. ago I had a high-risk pregnancy that resulted in an unnecessary emerg. c-section, with no pain medication. I was strapped to a table and cut open. My baby is okay. But the horror of being surrounded by health care providers (whom we instinctively trust), and, essentially being cut open ‘Braveheart’ style has haunted me ever since. I feel like death is following me. I see black images flash by. Have terrifying nightmares and panic attacks. I have anti-anxiety meds. but none of my MD’s, specialists, psychs etc. seem to grasp the severity of my terror. I am afraid to be in groups, I don’t trust anyone, not even family. I want to hide in a corner alone, but at the same time am afraid if I am left alone I will OD or self-harm to escape. During this time we have had to declare personal bankruptcy because of my loss of income. And I’m now experiencing what we think are partial seizures. They tell me to get more sleep. Hmm. Morphine IV drip anyone? My husband has recently been going through tests for possible auto-immune deficiency or lymphoma. He may be in radiation therapy. And the real kicker? He just lost his job– the whole dept. got laid off. Oh yeah– and the engine in our car blew, so I don’t have transportation to doctor’s appts. (which terrify me because of the Post-Traumatic triggers). Due to the bankruptcy, we can’t get a line of credit. We have 3 precious, clever children. Their glowing faces keep me going. But I’m at the end. I have tremors. I tremble. I have twitches I’ve never had before in addition to the partial seizures. I have chronic migraines. I have a PTSD counsellor who is wonderful, but we rarely meet. And my psychiatrist has slowly limited my access/advice/prescriptions. I’m alone. And I’m terrified. My father just disowned me. And my in-laws have offered no words of support, meals, child care, or help w/ car repairs. My anxiety is so high 24/7 I feel like a current is running through my body. The only way I can sleep is with medication. I don’t want my children to see me like this. I am a very involved/supportive parent, but my body is giving up. I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck. I’ve begun an old habit of self-cutting. Stupid, I know. But the doctors can’t help. Family isn’t helping. And now, well, I’m depending on drugs to help me sleep. I’m a Type A(ambitious)/ passionate/ apple-pie-in-the-sky kind of girl. I want my children to see that side of me again. Please don’t suggest more drugs. I’ve been prescribed every drug in the book. I just– I just don’t know if I DESERVE to be a mother anymore. I’m so tired I can’t hardly get out of bed for a shower most days. I’m a shadow of what I used to be. 3 years ago? I could do anything. My world, though difficult, was overflowing with joy. Could I be suffering a nervous breakdown w/ all these symptoms? Or, should I just go…?? thanks in advance, broken wings

Written by on November 30th, 2009

with broken wings... asked: Related posts:i’ve been feeling weird lately and i don’t know what it is. here is a list of suspicious problems/symptoms: -i can’t sleep (i’ve slept 14 hours the past 4 days) -i’m feeling sad for no reason -i feel worried even though there’s no reason to, its summer and ...